Blogging Rant

Yahoo...the Carnival is in town...so instead of doing our healthy lifestyle (water aerobics in the community center), we got to use our hobbies budget and blow it all on the carnival...$12 per person. Anyways I used that and bought myself 12 tickets ($1 per ticket) and went on 2 rides with Billy/Sabrina (who were just coincidentally there) while others bought more (they had to subsidize anything over $12) or brought the all-you-can-ride $25 bracelet. It was all right, and though I enjoyed it, it just made me realize that I am getting too old for rides because my body cannot handle it like I used it...after Music Ride (a medium-mild spinning ride), I had to find a seat and calm down the tornado in my head...

Here`s just a little something I thought about these days about blogging. Blogging, I found out, is actually hard business, especially in Katimavik and the way I am doing it...days pass by everyday, with something going on everyday and it is hard to capture that. Even when one can capture that, there are still thoughts/comments/intimate feelings, which are more important to capture. The balance between both things is what makes a blog interesting to do, and I hope I have been doing that in them...however there are so much things happening, and so much subtle emotions conveyed in them that it is pretty much impossible for me to record everything. There are still a number of blogs that I would like to write about, that are still in my head...especially The Big Group One (tickling Charles`s curiousity). Anyways despite all the words I write, I haven`t even covered many of the things/dynamics happening in the house. And the days just grow longer and longer, with more to write about...I feel like a poor gardener battling in a land of dandelions...as soon as you finish weeding some, more pops up.

Another thing that occurred to me is the old saying about living life versus reading about it. I think one of the reasons I am not able to capture all the subtle emotions between people is because I am so busy occupied with the idea of trying to write/catch up with blogs, instead of sitting down and just enjoy doing stupid yet crucial (crucial in a sense that it promotes closeness) things with the group. In a way, I am like the hardworking parent that works all the time to make ends meet and make sure everyone in the family is financially stable, but really have no idea who the children are and what they are like. I feel like an outsider...something to think about.

Finally, the thought of Charles reading my blog means I should watch what I say, haha...read the comments if you do not know what I mean. Although if I do that, I really shouldn`t be writing this blog anymore. However reading Charles`s comments today made me realize that I am only getting a narrow vision of what is happening, and many times my vision may not be true (again referring to the "feeling like an outsider" comment). And I guess in a more philosophical level, what is the truth? What I see/say versus what others in the group see/say will definitely be different, despite the situation being the same. I think a great example is putting a bunch of artists in front of an apple and telling them to draw it...and you would get everything from your classic apple picture, to abstract, or even a sculpture of it made from paper. Who is to say there is one definitive picture/truth? Alright I think I am ranting too much right now, but my point is with this blog I am telling what I think is right, and even though others may disagree or even feel offended, I am going to continue doing what I do (in order words, too bad..:P).

Mike update - not that Mike told us anything...but now the group enjoys the house without him enough that people like Maxime are planning to put a stop to it if Mike comes back...ouch.